I Do Indeed Have A Father

This is a big subject for me. You would think that age 46 years old I would have plenty of friends. Well I do, and I don't. Now let me explain why I say that. For over three quarters of my life I had no clue who I was, let alone people around me. You gotta get before learning to give. Growing up years was not a playground or fun. I dont remember alot of it anymore, which I think it is God's healing for me. Anyway, sometimes I feel I am just beginning on the journey of making friends. I have friends that love me. And they are the ones that I can give credit for this journey of life of making friends a start. You just can't judge a book by it's cover. My cover tried to look good and be okay, but my friends would open the pages of that book. Reading things that were terrible, not consumable for every reader. But being friends, they knew what to white out and what to expand on. I desire more than anything to learn to do that for others. Praise God He did those things for t...

I must have been tired when I went to bed last night. I did not wake up til, 9:27 a.m. Ok, maybe that is a little later than some would get up, but it was a good rest either way. Tami fixed eggs, bacon and bagel for breakfast. Very good. Carlos went to get a transmission for his car , Tami had a doctor appointment, Liz went to work. I got to watch Addison for her.Addison is a sweet baby, she is warming up to me. Oh, none of them were gone long. And before Tami left Carlos made it back so we watch the kids together. Fun watching Tami and Carlos playing with the kids and their interactions. We all had a good day, went to do a little shopping and just being together. The roads are very busy here. The gas seemed as thou it is higher at $3.10 I think. It is cold, snow stayed on the ground. Maybe we will get some more. Enjoying the visit.Tami and Carlos is very sweet. They had a disagreement tonight, but it was good that they worked it out. So thankful my daughter has him as a husband. He i...

Got up at three this morning and got to the airport by 4 a.m. or a little after 4. I had Dylanna just drop me off instead of her coming in and all. Got through baggage check in, security and all that good stuff. After security I had to go to the very last gate. So it was not a short distance. Time seemed to pass pretty well. Not too many people or kids at 6 a.m. Got loaded on a small plane, the kind with two seats on one side and one on the other of the isle. So that was a two hour trip. Got to Newark, New Jersey and I did not have to find another gate. Pretty neat to come in and go out the same gate. Now it is time to wait for next flight. I think it was three hours. Plus a 15 minute delay. I got hungry. Since we did not eat at 3 in the morning and no time after that. So , what is there? Coffee, granola yogurt is what I got. By now there is more people and kids. I met this little boy who was four. Once he got startde , silly could be his name. But I was sitting there when across from ...

Well today at four we as in Dylanna, Samantha, Jasmine and myself will be heading to Nashville. We will be staying with Jeff and Becky at her parents house. God is good, they are 30 minutes from the airport. Somebody will drive me to the airport at 4 a.m. tomorrow morning, so I can be all checked in and ready for my flight at 6 a.m. I found a small on the go printer and made some cute little picture holders, maybe God will give me the opportunity to offer to take a picture of a couple kids. The printer connects directly to my camera. Take picture, print in about 2 minutes. I don't know, I am sure there might be somebody that thinks, wouldn't it be nice I could print the picture I just took. Anyway , we will see. Keep ya posted on happenings while I am away to RI for two weeks.

Hi again. It is interesting how Shammah was talking about John at the same time that Amy Carmichael thought of him. She brought out when John sent the disiples to Jesus to ask Him if He is the one or not? His response for them to go back and tell John what they have seen and heard. John must have been so encouraged. Luke 7:22-23 Go your way, and tell John.... Before they got to the end of the mighty things they were to tell him, John's heart must have kindled with new hope: My Lord can do all that, He is doing all that, He is ominipotent. He is my loving Lord, and He is very near. He who is doing all these things will do great things for me. I shall soon be free- He who is opening the prison doors of death will open my prison door. Can you not hear him say it, or least feel him think it, as he listens to all the things His Lord can, and has done. And then instead of a promise and quick help, " Blessed is he, whoever shall not be offended with Me"- Matt 11:6 and that ...

Well today went into Jackson with Mary B. took her to Walmart, Kmart and Baskin Robbins. It is so funny the relationship that Mary and I have gained. We have some funny things to laugh at as far as when we first met and time went on that we did not get along with one another at all. I would treat her poorly and like she had cooties or something. As time went by God was faithful to do His work with me. So we really laugh about it now and she playfully hits me. I am very thankful for the hard time her and I went thru. I am very thankful we can laugh about it now too. Anyway we had a good time. After we came out of Kmart, I was driving out of the parking lot when I felt I was supposed to drive up to the lady walking thru the parking lot. So I drove up said Merry Christmas to her and she responded back. I felt there was something else so I paused before driving off. She asked me which direction I was going, I told her South. She looked disappointed, I asked her where she needed to go, she ...

Yep it is late, well I guess I could say early. Anavah was due to be at the train station in Memphis last night at 10 pm. We got there earlier, which was good since we could not find a place to park for awhile. Then I had to squeeze between two cars, um that is the parallel parking, have not did that in awhile but it went ok. So we get inside, could not figure out how to get where we needed to go. With the help from a couple of police officers they were kind enough to show us. There was a disco dancing party going on for the school in there, loud music indeed, plus lights. I wont say the last time I experienced that. smile. Got the ticket, got a conversation going with a sweet lady who was about my age. Well I must say that at first there was not any smiling going on from the people around us much. Well, breaking out of my box, I started a conversation with them.They started smiling after a couple minutes. Found out she was the mother of the 2 twenty year olds with her. She offered me ...

Today I made a couple of gifts for a couple of people. I got them done, looked at them and thought they are not perfect. But some how inside I felt at peace with them thinking how many times I have wanted to hide my flaws and look right and good. Thank you Father for helping me to be freer. I always used to tell my kindergärtners that it was their effort and attitude that mattered to me about what they did , not how perfect it was. I always need the reminder.

I have been making crafts , cards and such for my friends. I started thinking of nativity scenes and the thought of Our Savior came to be. Since I have had barns with animals and know how the stable can be. Nativity scenes always look so pretty. It gave me a perspective I have not thought about before. I know alot of times the trying to make things about my life and the way that I am better than it is came to mind. Christ for sure started his long suffering for us long before the cross. I mean, the stable I am sure was smelly, plus the poky hay in the manger. Praise God He loves me and I don't need to polish my life. Thou that is a fight not to want to polish it up. I hope to encourage others that our lives are redeemed in such a real way.