Acceptance
Another chapter read . Blows me away and encourages me . Just more confirmation on how much my past , all the bad impressions of life events has consumed so much of my attention and wanting these events not to have happened . Not only have all those events of awfulness robbed me , me being so consumed trying to erase so much , wish them away robbed me too . What a thought . Forever the events that has caused me so much pain and hurt , that I never came full circle of Acceptance it happened , crazy how I guess that alone has affected my relationships today . I guess accepting the past events was hard , to accept made me think I had to think it was ok it ever happened even thou it wasn't. But that is not what it is about . Acceptance is basically saying the event took place and cant be changed or altered . I have tried so hard to satisfy , pray them away, change , deal with , cry them away , wish them away and none has never worked . And to think this fight has not been with th