I Do Indeed Have A Father

I am so looking forward to trying my hand at blogging again. Hope it finds you well . This is a new season for me . I will be starting a new job next week .  I live in Murfreesboro now . This post is just mostly a saying hi and see if you get the blog post . Let me know . 

Another chapter read .  Blows me away and encourages me . Just more confirmation on how much my past , all the bad impressions of life events has consumed so much of my attention and wanting these events not to have happened . Not only have all those events of awfulness robbed me , me being so consumed trying to erase so much , wish them away robbed me too . What a thought . Forever the events that has caused me so much pain and hurt , that I never came full circle of Acceptance it happened , crazy how I guess that alone has affected my relationships today . I guess accepting the past events was hard , to accept made me think I had to think it was ok it ever happened even thou it wasn't.   But that is not what it is about . Acceptance is basically saying the event took place and cant be changed or altered .  I have tried so hard to satisfy , pray them away,  change , deal with , cry them away , wish them away and none has never worked .  And to think this f...

A Sweet young lady made this just before I left Tennessee to come to RI .

  It has been awhile since being on here, between no time, working, too tired, different reasons for not writing, along with intimidated thoughts that it will not be a good writing.  Let's see, since July - I have met my biological father, wow, that was something even thou he lives in assistant living it was a Joy and a Blessing. Mom and him separated back when I was four so all I had was a picture of what he looked like. It was a very nice first visit, it was a healing time for both of us . Hope to see him again soon. After 45 years wow.   Some things you may need to catch up with my other posts to make sense to you. But also, God blessed me with new dentures that are fitting much better than the last ones I had ugh which were a night mare. Very thankful for these new ones thou still adjusting to them. I had to have my two bottom teeth pulled, one root was cracked and the other was very loose and no hope to it tightening back up. So that only happened last week, stil...

        Wow, I have not written for some time. I read a blog post that I had written over a good couple years ago. I don't know about other people but for me , my life does not need to be going poorly or even badly for me to be needing My Father. Thou at times I don't pay attention to that I just go about life and everyday things.        On the post I had written before was asking God for a broken heart, lo and behold He had revealed physically that He heard me by the broken ceramic heart bowls that was delivered to me. No, I did not order them that way but God delivered them to me like that.        I love that He does not leave me . It is a good place to need Him.

  Um bike riding. I have rode my bike before but in such a small amount since being an adult. While in my youth it was no big deal to ride my bike for even long distances or miles was no big deal. Age and complacency caught up with me as far as exercise like that. Yesterday, was a big day, I went to put in an application at Honey Dew which a thirty minute walk , got there put in an app, then walking further down the road to catch a bus to Kennedy Plaza . Walked from there to the Attorney General Office to get a BCI so I could fill out another application later. Then I walked back to Kennedy  Plaza to get on another bus to go back home. I got home, took off on my bike to head to put my application in at another place. Well, the map I used or lack of a road sign, not sure but I got lost. Nobody would help me find my way. That was sad, but in today's society it is hard to trust anybody at all so I don't blame them. I then came up to an auto garage telling them I was lost, where...