I Do Indeed Have A Father

   Now you wonder why I titled this brothers. Well let's see if I can explain. I treasure my brothers. Yes there is at times we had our spit spats but always worked them out. I woke up this morning about 4 and started thing of my brothers,,,how many do I have ? Quite a few.    You see when I grew up, my family did not have the pleasure of knowing the meaning of love one another. We did not have much of an enjoyable time growing up. But God used all of it for growth to help me be where I am now. I learned forgiveness which is huge instead of being bitter with life and blaming everybody. My biological brothers who I am talking about, rest their souls, I was hard core growing up, grew bitter with the ones around me. Lost both brothers to unfortunate deaths. One was younger , one was older than I. I grew up actually fatherless and then brother less at a young age.  I then had children of my own. The generational of the not know how to do family still lingered and ...

    I was doing an art- (just now I thought of Hannah, when I typed the (an art) I remembered Hannah telling me that when  you use a in front of a word beginning with a vowel use  an instead of a , I never knew that but when she told me that years ago it has stuck.)     Ok, that may have some bearing on what I am thinking or it may not. Back to the art project. Pointillism, which is a form of art using dots to do your picture. I was using dots yesterday and wow, lots of dots .   http://mycreations-artscrapbooksandfunthings.blogspot.com/2013/08/something-different.html You can see it there at that link. Which I thank Anavah that I even know what pointillism is from helping me learn some art. You are probably wondering how does the two memories relate to one another? Let me see if I can try to explain. No matter what we do do, big or small, has an impact somewhere in the persons life rather conscientiously or not. There is negative and positive that ...

     Where to start. Lot of changes. I moved from my previous home for 16 plus years in RCV Ministries is a body of people who came together intentional to seek the will of God in our lives together, exhorting, building up, encouraging one another everyday, in the little town of Selmer, Tennessee. I am now living with my daughter , her husband and grandsons here in Providence, RI. Why did I moved? I believed and felt as thou God was leading me here. (Who can resist the leading of His guidance?) I moved up to help my daughter finish school, so I babysat the Grand boys while she went and daddy worked. I have enjoyed many moments with them that will be in the timeline of memories til the end. Our relationship is growing as well. Very grateful for the times of fun and the times to overcome. She has graduated now. So, I have just been waiting for the next thing from God. Which I feel is to stay put for now until clear from God .     After living back home for all th...

Strange title huh. By no means am I a writer like some. I try. Sometimes I feel pretty stupid thou but that is ok, good exercise for me. Ok, there is a reason I titled this broken heart. God is faithful for sure even when I am not. I am indeed stubborn as most people know. Not proud of it by no means but am regardless to say. I am very opinionated too, duh , that is a hard one since it hurts the people around me. God is really coming after His people about intimacy . I am no good at that indeed. I hope I don't make you chase rabbits while reading this :). Anyway, I went off in left field some where away from the goodness of MY Father. I went down the path of totally feeling insecure if people don't like me, or what if they care for her more, all self. Trusting my own mind again, that is dangerous to every degree. We had two people come talk with us, no pun pulled that is for sure. Having to look at again that as many people I have had relationship problems, things get too ...

Yes, another day to wake up , see the sunshine, the faces of our friends and to know Our God loves us. Yes another chance to live as today may be your last day to serve Our master, another day to speak as it may be our last, our deeds and practices, dealings with one another in truth, love and hope. Sometimes I know we wake up and take everything for granted as thou it will always be there. It won't, the only things that will stand forever is the Love that we pass onto one another that was passed to us as Our Father has shown us. Fresh air is always better to breathe and to live in. Is there unclear thoughts and wonders that need to be dispelled ? Is there people you have hurt and need to repent for it? Is there deeds you just know was not ok to do that you need to change your direction in? What about knowing something that God has for sure wanting you to do that you keep brushing to the side cause it is easier? Another day to be open to listening to Our Father. Anot...

Where to start. Gee, I really started thinking and feeling that I wanted to feel healthier, function better . I have gotten into alot of bad habits again, like I was with my walk with My Father. Lazy , complacent, short cuts and all. When I was watching all the movies I was watching, thou they were not bad movies but I was not digesting what was healthy for growing with God. I feel like my diet and spiritual walk is going hand in hand . The more I started looking at reality of what I have been doing , the more I did not like it. I have been feeling fresher and clearer and the presence of My Father since I am not watching movies, just me. This juicing has caused me to look at how much confessingly I like food. But not all the right kind. I think about the foods I put in my body that is just a hurry up kind- you know processed or fast food while I am out and about. Easy things to do. Tastes good, fills me up but then later I feel like I swallowed a rock, yuk. I am encouraged I lost ...

Well, about a week and half ago I was beginning to feel I needed to change some things. When God gave Jim all that he gave us with all the passion he had, and with the Ingathering coming- His timing is always perfect even thou I don't see it. I wished that I could say that I don't have to get out there before seeing it. One of my idols That I had to see was MOVIES thru netflix. Very easy excess , plug earphones into my computer-so not to bother anybody. Steam a movie pretty freely from netflix. Got lazy, so lazy, every body goes to their rooms so another easy excuse to watch a movie. I also know that there was a movie that coming back up in conversation and before me on netflix, I avoided it , not cause it was bad but cause I knew I would be convicting- "Cross And The Switch Blade", I think is the name of it. I was not being with my friends, too lazy to walk ALL THE WAY down the hill and back up. So yes I was taking the easy way :(. It is one thing to occassionall...