I Do Indeed Have A Father

Something new. I have put my application in two places so far. One at the Nursing Home for CNA classes and training. Two at Walmart for cashier and or greeter. It is a little scary, at the same time exciting. So we will see what happens. This is it for now.

This morning I sat over with Leona . I wished I would have wrote down then how it made me think and feel. Maybe it was just my emotions I don't know but I sat there and had this picture of being poured into and in return pouring it out into others, but I mean I have read that before but it never struck me the way it struck me today.The thought of that at that moment I felt my chest was gonna pop out of me and tears rolled out of my eyes, feeling as thou it was so real that I was one of His vessels. And the compassion for Leona was so sweet. I saw My Father's face. I don't know if this makes sense or not . His Love for us is indeed so incredible. And now the thought of a dear friend who said that if you wake up in the morning and you are breathing Our Father has something for you to do. I am learning that. That is all for now.

You will understand the title shortly. Just remember I am not a writer, so bare with me. I must start with an outing us single ladies took our dear friend Simchah out to enjoy her before she gets married. She is honored greatly for many who she touches. Well after everybody gives her their blessings, she in return labored and not feeling all the way well, blessed each one of us ( about 16 or 18) with a necklace, pouring out her heart on why she picked out the particular one for each one of us,who are we in Christ. It meant so much. Dry eyes did not exist as far as I could tell. I mean we don't just believe in what happened on the cross, but He is real in changing us and showing who we are in Him, so we can be a service to Him. Little by little layers of the hurts, pains and desires unfold, but for who? Not just for me to be free, but to give back what He gives us, by giving to those who may need the same. That we may be free to hear and obey what He has for us. Here it is, al...

A few thoughts, observations and such. A couple days after I got there we went shopping. Wow what an experience. Other than on Black Friday I have not seen this before. Maybe I am blind or observant but it stood out to me there. In a two or three places we went it was a mad house as far as in one place when people decided they did not want an item it ended up everywhere. This employee working there I noticed had a cart that was overflowing with items to put back and there was oodles more all over. I noticed she was pretty overwelmed, I said something to her to lighten it, she smiled.It was fun making others smile or laugh.

Here in RI we played Bolder Dash in which I have not played in years, had a blast, made up silly definitions and got laughed at, up to midnight and some of us went to the highest point in RI to see the fireworks go off. Well, after the steep walk up there I was really hoping for a big display. It was a drop in the bucket compared to some that we have seen and done in RCV, but it was worth it just for the laughter and being together it was fun. It is funny how we do or not do somethings for self reasons. I mean a while back I would not have played that game for being too afraid of looking stupid. Well I played the game freely enough and did look stupid but we had fun and made people laugh.

This is a big subject for me. You would think that age 46 years old I would have plenty of friends. Well I do, and I don't. Now let me explain why I say that. For over three quarters of my life I had no clue who I was, let alone people around me. You gotta get before learning to give. Growing up years was not a playground or fun. I dont remember alot of it anymore, which I think it is God's healing for me. Anyway, sometimes I feel I am just beginning on the journey of making friends. I have friends that love me. And they are the ones that I can give credit for this journey of life of making friends a start. You just can't judge a book by it's cover. My cover tried to look good and be okay, but my friends would open the pages of that book. Reading things that were terrible, not consumable for every reader. But being friends, they knew what to white out and what to expand on. I desire more than anything to learn to do that for others. Praise God He did those things for t...

I must have been tired when I went to bed last night. I did not wake up til, 9:27 a.m. Ok, maybe that is a little later than some would get up, but it was a good rest either way. Tami fixed eggs, bacon and bagel for breakfast. Very good. Carlos went to get a transmission for his car , Tami had a doctor appointment, Liz went to work. I got to watch Addison for her.Addison is a sweet baby, she is warming up to me. Oh, none of them were gone long. And before Tami left Carlos made it back so we watch the kids together. Fun watching Tami and Carlos playing with the kids and their interactions. We all had a good day, went to do a little shopping and just being together. The roads are very busy here. The gas seemed as thou it is higher at $3.10 I think. It is cold, snow stayed on the ground. Maybe we will get some more. Enjoying the visit.Tami and Carlos is very sweet. They had a disagreement tonight, but it was good that they worked it out. So thankful my daughter has him as a husband. He i...